cam-whoring.
managed to finish my assignment in time,
hopefully i'll be able to get good grades cos
i did it all with my eyes half-open.
i was real sleepy but i gotta complete if not i wont feel good.
anyway,still got the observation tool to do
but i've gotta photocopy it first,
if not it will be dirty, cos i've been scribbling on the paper.
after this, shall not relax anymore.
still got one assignment and one test to go.
and the IT assignment is suicide i guess.
i'm craving for salmon, "it's samon, not salmon, pronounce it without the L."
haha, that's wad i've learned from juliana today.
of course not! haha.i've learned CD la, CD!!
i guess things are better off this way.
i've jus bought her world. gotta spend my time reading later. wee!
tmr's vesak day, guess i'm gona sleep the whole day away!
i'm super super tired.
help me do my assignments and test will you?
_|_ (o.O) _|_ be a good boy and share alright?

bud trying to act emo.

outing! :D
okay i'm like such a lazy bum,
i'm not doing anything constructive now,
instead i'm just taking out my laptop and starts blogging.
but anyway, i'm just so lazy and angry with the assignments.
i'm angry and i didn't want to do anymore.
give me a break man! argh.
there's test coming up on 6th june plus the
IT assignment (whole chunk of it) to be handed in on the 8th june.
went for attachment today,haha.this line is really like
training your patience, sometimes you just feel like doing something
that you're not able to do. argh!
tmr is school again, lesson is till 5 again. oh man!
i'm craving for SPASPASPASPASPASPA.
R R R R R R R R R R R R R R R R R.
the rest doesn't matter to me anymore.
anyway i should have longed knew that all this would be coming.
you should know, jamie chan.
this should even have started in the first place.
at least you've not get out of it,
but this is the hardest period & i gotta stand strong.
and i believe i'm not gonna break down that easily.
i will get over all this soon.

i'm lost at words.
but anyway i just found out something which i realise
i shouldn't have.
too bad i wanted to know so badly.
and i realise i've got no rights at all,
i shan't interfere.it's non of my business.
because there's nothing on between us.
so i guess let's just let nature take it's course.
cos i've already lost all the faith & confidence in you-know-what.
WHATEVER! as long as he returns safely,
the rest is none of my business. :D
i will always have people with me who will cheer me up & make me smile.
thanks to mr-ah-lian-pose.
which makes me seriously laugh out loud to myself alone.
even though it's just a little thing that people out there do,
i've learned to appreciate and cherish.
i'm in a bad shape now,
but i'm gonna recover again soon.
it's not a problem, not a problem at all.
piles & piles of assignments needed to be handed in during june.
test test & test.
can someone just slap me to death?
or just make me laugh to death.
i need to replenish myself with enjoyment, fun joy & laughter.

i had a bad day :(
the Rs. come come!motivate me.

I LOVE THIS SERIOUSLY.

can you understand how bored is class?

we're retarded.

the last pic.

we continuous shots.

we're er...acting cute?

during play class!

me and zarra!
now you can really see how bored is class.
we're supposed to discuss about the question on the screen.
but we're all taking photos!
so bad right?haha.that's life,
but it's us who suffers in the end la. =x
anyway,was super super happy cus of the Rs?haha!
i'm so gay!
went to study with sfx and dong ytd at mac.
he keeps disturbing,he's an real idiot i should say.
real real big big bully!
will be meeting chum today!i'm looking forward.
life is good now,shall live life the fullest just like what he said.
:D
WALK AWAY

in class during play.

:D
it's so bored staying at home.
luckily ting came to accompan me,
but there's gonna be work later on man.
first time working, and abit last too minute.
seriously fuck you all.
i'm sick and tired of playing all this sicko mind games.
but all thanks to SFX ah,
haha,your words seriously motivated me sia.
and the Rs,cc.you are all the best.lots of love.

that's when the chef starts to cook.

evidence of being scalded by the oil.

er soon la.

it's halfway done!

dinner time! =)
dong came to my house to cook!
haha,both of us are so broke that we had to stay home to cook.
the food was nice actually.
but dong actually scalded both me and herself la.
school was not bad today,as usual.GOSSIPS!
what's a girl called a girl without any gossips?
disappointment and disappoinment,this will never end unless
i stop it all myself.
come on man,i guess i'm still not occupied enough.
chan no use doing all this,
you're getting nowhere.seriously nowhere except disappointment.
go to hell,!@#$ MY LIFE.

my NRA dance bud.
anyway,life is not getting any better
except the friends around me,they're the one to pick me up when i fall.
those whom i treasure alot alot.
thanks guys,by letting me fall on you =)
guess everyone is starting to feel stressed up.
cus we've got lots os assignments and test piling up already.
starting from tmr onwards,
things will start to keep my busy which is a good thing.
cus i wont end up in my sweet dreams which turn out to be hell world.
did stuff which i have never did before.
walk and eat at the same time.
guess what?there's this flying cockroach which madde
me screamed like hell.the first time i screamed because of an insect.
a note to all guys:
it is a must to give the girl assurance,warmth,security and
always let her feel that she's important. =)
always say out how you feel,dont keep your feelings to yourself.

that's ronin omalley!

ronin & yew seng!

went out with a few of them.
watched movie and did some catch up it's been so long since we've met up.
since secondary school isn't it?
but anyway,we had a nice time today.
played daytona.first time,i was the last.
the second time i was third!i won wee kiat can you believe it?
anyway,wont be able to play youth cup this year.
but i guess it's what i wanted.
or maybe i should say i'm comforting myself because i couldn't get in/
perhaps this way i got more time to complete my assignment i guess.
i'm becoming real rusty i guess,
it's so last minute when i decided that i wanna play ball.
cus perhaps bball is the closest way i can relate to you.
anyway,whatever la ah.
not gonna have lessons for FE tmr,
but will be a test on tues!guys better study ya!
hopefully i'll be a good girl and study too.
and not spend time thinking of those nonsense.
move on jamie chan,come on la,is that the best you can do?
ALL OF THE MEMORIES SO CLOSE TO ME JUST FADE AWAY.



"Over You"

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

that's me when vanny was trying to disturb me.

me & yee mun :)

me & zarra (:

me & vanny :)
a few of my very good course mate.
played with playdough today,didn't even went to play la.

you made me feel lost,
you made me not knowing what i'm doing.
one moment i was on top of the world,
the other moment i was kicked right down to hell.
my mind is twirling and whirling around,
back and forth in and out again.
fuck off _|_
SO MUCH FOR MY HAPPY ENDING.

"What Hurts The Most"

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

absolutely fits my mood now.
never go back,never turn back.
just forget it and move on.

my face looks pale.
okay i should really say that assignments has really started to pile up.
so doreen,wait till i'm free okay! =)
your concept and my concept towards guys are the same.
alright yesterday morning went to school's library trying to do some work,
but guess wad?i ended up playing with games.
haa,chummie's game really tempting.i just can't control.
i just feel like landing my hands on the keyboard and play.wahahahas!
anyway,good friends came to find me in the library.
went to join them after that.

i'm happy with my life now,i'm satisfied and i feel loved.
i seriously enjoyed ytd at the library.
it was really heartwarming though they keep disturbing.
so what?at least i felt loved and no pressure,
thanks clique for yesterday.seriously thanks!
thanks for gossiping about her along with me =x
although i seriously lost my glam-ness.
anyway i'm always so unglam also la.
thanks for letting me feel that life like this is good enough.
after leaving np,
went to yishun to find cc along with dong.

thanks to all people around me & being there for me.
it's already more than enough.all of you are greatly loved.
i'm satisfied already.
seriously showing my love to all of you.
you should knwo who you are. =)

i'd rather there's no you,
i dont want to return to square one.

when i was talking to family.
RIPPED APART,BROKEN,TORNED.
let it go chan,say goodbye. =)
there's ever been a better time to be young,
free and unattached.
a toothbrush for one in the bathroom doesn't make you a loser.
thanks to women's independence, we no longer
need a man to bring home the bacon,
which allows us to be more selective in love.

UH ACT CUTE SOME MORE.

ya smile SMILE!

what am i doing la?
was damn bored at home yesterday that's why take all those photos.
am in school right now,doing nothing.
just slacking around in school before next lesson starts.
i'm super tired please,still couldn't sleep well.
but i guess at least i'm improving.
oh well,it has to be like this,there's no other way out.
just get used to life like this.
at least with SFX there,life would be so much better cus of his craps.
that idiot.he cannot make it seriously.
plus all my buddies and khakis around.
i feel that i'm still loved by people around me =)
i have to say i have to go through this one more time again.
which i really dont wish to but i have no choice.
why should i care when you dont even give a damn?
just concnetrate with my studies, my cca will do.
dance and basketball can definitely occupy my time!
i wanna get over it and done with.
no point brooding over it anymore.
you're not important to him anymore.you're not his priority.
he's saying things but he's not doing anything.
_|_(o.0)_|_

she said she likes this.

thanks buddy!

woah my smile so real.
wasn't really a nice day.
but it's what i wanted.
because i can't tortures anymore.
spill everything out at once,which makes things really goes worst.
but since what's done is done.
all i can say is what i've alwasys wanted to say & move on.
all i asked for is just that simple task.
there's no need for a 9,999 roses,
there's no need for ring,necklace,jewelleries.
there's no need for anything fanciful,expensive.
all i asked for is just time,sincerity,comfort,security & love.
it's not just words that says it all.
it's action to prove it that's all.
i just want to feel worthwhile.
you didn't realize you've been neglecting me?
i guess i've got nothing more to say.
i've already said al that i've wanted to say.
i just wanted a lil more attention that's all.
things will eventually fade away,
everything do change,but i didn't know the change will
be so unexpected.such a big change.
the feeling right here is what you wouldn't understand.
this is killing me,but i will survive.
i understand that you're tired,
and couldnt even feel like saying some sweet stuff.
i understand that trainings are inevitable.
this feelings are bound to happen.
i can't take this feeling.
as all this feeling collage together,
it seriously can end my life,perhaps i'm exaggerating
but i'm a weakling.
i can't take all this seriously.
i can't take disappointments especially.
once and again,time and time again.it still happen.
all i can do is just keep quiet and be understanding.
once bitten,twice shy.
at least now i'm not gonna add on to your stress.
no one is gonna pester you for any messages.

some funny stuff to share cited from emails:
-save water.
shower with your girlfriend.

-behind every successful man, there is a woman.
and behind every unsuccessful man,there are two.

-children in backseats cause accidents
accidents in backseats cause children.

-"your future depends on your dreams"
so go to sleep!

it's kinda lame though but then it really made me smile.
lesson was tiring today,
lectured followed by lectures,phew man!
but luckily juliana let us off earlier,
if not we'll all be dozing off in class i guess.
my stomach is still ain't recovering well.
same old pattern,the toilet has now become my second home.argh!
i seriously hate this feeling.but who likes it anyway?

dance yesterday was fantastic please!
stayed will quite late then after that bro came to fetch
went to eat then head back home.
i'm dead beat & i'm choking.
i almost can't take it anymore! :(